May 5, 2008
dammit! i almost made it!!!
Day one of the shoutfree project was going so well! I managed to go all day without shouting at my children despite the fact that Jacob got in trouble at school (turns out for a not major infraction) and that Madison was wild with desire to drive me over the edge. Not to mention that if I were what I feel I would be a zombie and therefore everyone would have been eaten and the matter would have been closed.
And so just an hour before her bed time she did pester me that tiny bit more than I could handle and without thinking I barked at her in a not quiet voice. Was it a shout? Not technically. But I cannot count this as a successful day in the shoutfree project.
Tomorrow is another day. I can and will do this. They will not get the better of me. I will not be given to self indulgent anger just because they are insane.

jenski said,
May 5, 2008 @ 9:45 pm
SO CLOSE! When in doubt, eat them next time. That is totally different from shouting.
Good luck!
drawdawn said,
May 7, 2008 @ 4:48 pm
But still! Only shouting once! That’s better than more than once anyway?!
psumommy said,
May 7, 2008 @ 7:31 pm
It was just the first day! It takes time…it’s a habit like any other. Try not to beat yourself up. And if you shout tomorrow, it’s ok, too. You WILL get to the point where it’ll become habit to be calmer. So just shouting once on your first day? That’s awesome!
(Jenski’s comment had me snorting Triscuits I was laughing so hard…OMG…I hope I can keep that idea in mind the next time my own voice starts to raise!)
honestyrain said,
May 7, 2008 @ 10:33 pm
i agree, jenski’s comment made me pee my pants.